Facing Fears

Week 4

Hellooooo!! Welcome baaack beautiful angel hehe

Probably, my blog is almost the same with others. But these are my own insights. So, keep reading it to know my part hehe :))

Monday wasn’t typical day as it is, it was our immersion day that was held at St. Michael’s College-Main Campus. I thought it was just some orientation about being medical student, but wasn’t expecting that there would be a tour that’ll happen. I was amazed because finally I’m seeing things I used to wished that I could see personally. As the speaker tour us at his mini hospital, I am being over acting, I just can’t believe that I am finally touching those medical equipments. Imagine? before, I was just watching surgeries in dramas/movies and this time I am finally looking and touching at it and realizing that those are legits.

Anyway, let me share you something about why did I choose nursing. I was not the one who choose this course actually, it was my mother’s siblings. My mother side were all medical professional so, probably they want us their nieces to be one of it. My mom wanted me to be a teacher, but everytime I realized that if I’d choose being a teacher, surely for the rest of my life I would wake up early in the morning and take a bath and then go to school, I mean I would be a student forever but I have my salary. But, this thought that always comes to my mind, aside from being a student forever is that being a teacher is fun yet tiring. It’s like you’re a mother with lots of childrens to handle all of a sudden and then after a year there would be another childrens and it hurts me because I am very easy to attouched to people. I can’t handle myself when I get attached to someone. I don’t wanna see them leaving me after all those memories we’ve created. It hurts me a lot knowing that you have a childrens who would comfort you if you had a bad day in your home and then there comes the day that you would bid goodbye because they were taking another step of their journey. That sucks. Ok I am being too dramatic na hehe.

It was just a normal day, we had our report in RS about LGBT and then revised our business plan and getting ready for the incoming grand expo. Also, we had our discussion in Physics. Yeah senior high student life :))

These were the days where I finally face my fears.

In Wednesday, we had our symposium at AVR they taught us about Basic Life Saving Training. We had our review about bandaging because we had already our discussion about it since grade 10 and performed CPR together with my partner. I got nervous actually when they said that we’re performing CPR because I know it to myself that I really don’t know how and I don’t want people laugh at me so I did my best and I guess my best was enough although it was not perfect as we expected. Lol. Of course there comes a time that I got bored listening lol sorry for being like this hehe. But, as the discussion got so far, I learned a lot about being a nursing student. It wasn’t really easy as we think it is.

In thursday, this was the day that we performed all the basic life saving training with the help of CDRRMO. We performed rescuing someone who got injured and it is not easy especially when the casualty is heavy, you have to be strong for you to save someone’s life. In the afternoon, we had our discussion again. At first, I thought it was just a simple discussion so I slept until I woke up that everyone is getting ready for our upcoming activity wherein there’s student who would pretend that they’re injured. So, something rang, it was like ambulance lol so, we ran as fast as we can and as we arrived outside the gymnasium we saw students who got injured like it’s real, the blood that was covered to their body feels like it’s really legit. I got nervous again because I hate seeing bloods. It’s so ewwww. Like really. Especially wounds. Omgg everytime I remember what I saw last time got me feel nervous. People were really doing their part. Thank god, my role was making sure that equipments were complete. That was really amazing!! Everytime I remember the drama I’ve been watching amazed me. That wasn’t really easy if there is an emergency. I have learned that if you want to be a responder, you have to be more attentive, be alert and always keep calm. Being a responder is truly amazing until you realize that you are saving different lives. I salute responders, nurses and doctors for trying their very best to save lives. All the things I have learned were forever in my mind and try my best to apply it to someone in the future :)) In God’s will, we all become what we wanted to be, just keep on praying and be humble :))

Our bond become more stronger :((

As time goes by, it is normally that bond gets better. Where we slowly separate ways :((

It saddened me knowing that there’s only few days remaining for us to create memories. We would separate ways. We will finally face the reality of a student. We will become more independent.

The bond we had this day would always be in my heart.

To my classmates who don’t know how to swim just like me, it is okay, you did it right, you did your part, you did you best :))

That’s all hehehehe

See you on my next bloogg!!